He Said. She Said.

10th June 2007.

2007-06-10T14:17:00.000+08:00

hulla hoop. ;p. it has been over a few weeks since the last time i update this bloggie of mine. haha. ;p. sorry. i was away for awhile. wee. loads of stuff happens ok. good stuff and several bad stuff, i mean, the 'not so good' stuff. ;).

i balik kampung ok. suddenly. my mum woke me up that morning, and was like 'hurry up, pack your things, flight pkul speuluh nnt'. so, i kelam kabut la kan. haha. sumbat smua dlm bag, and off we go. ok, ktorg naik that firefly plane. haha. it was small. pretty cmfrtble la jugak. but hey, i am so so so friggin afraid of heights, so, it was a scary ride. haha. ;p. wtv. smpi je kt trggnu airport, my grndpa, abg syfq and aiman was waiting in the car. so, off we go. smp je rmh my grndma, i was like 'wow, this place havent changed at all, still old and comfy'. ;). it was GREAT! ok? hehe. i got out of the car, and i saw adam danish. hehe. cik ngoh was holding him. he was SO CUTE! yes yes he sure is ok. u better believe me. hehe. ;). dkt rumah my grndprnts, ada cik ngoh, syahmi, abg syfq, adib, aqir, wan, ki, aiman darwish and adam danish. hehe. cool cool. it was fun to have them around. ngee. mlm tu, cik long, ayh long and kak da dtg rmh wan. well, at frst, its kinda weird la when i am around kak da, sbb dh lma xjmpe. but hey, it turns out to be ok. siyesly ok. ;). the next day, ong and his wife [gosh, i cnt rmmbr my aunt's nme] and his three lil kids dtg, tehy arrived subuh tu. huhu. so, kitorg pakat2 nk turun bandar. miahaha. so here we go, i pegi la sbb i nk pegi rmh cik long. ada plan sikit dgn kak da. haha. ;p. mama, mcm biasa la, trun sbb nk pg psr kdai payang, nk bli kain and stuff. msa dgn kak da tuh, i pegi kat food carnival, it was HUGE. really. mcm mcm mknan ada. but msa kitorg pegi uh, xbnyk stall yg buka. so, yeahh. than, kak da ajk pegi butik ape tah, die nk cri hndbag, so kitorg pegi la. then, xjmep yg bknan di hati. so kitorg pegi blik dkt food crnival, kak da mkn laksa ape tah. i tggu je. not in the mood to eat la katakan. miaha. ;p. lps mkn, kak da ckp nk pegi gntg rmbt plak. so, pegi la balik kt tmpt sbelah kdai butik uh. kitorg tggu nearly two hours ok. sbb there is this customer, tngah buat teknik rebonding. cehh. gile lama. ada bnyk lagi bnda yg jd for that past few days, but hey, mls la nk type. haha. grr. i was in trggnu for a few days. it was FUN. my grndprnts pun sht je. alhamdulillah. :)).

on thursday morning, i pegi kl. naik bus. woot woot. smp kt kl dlm pkul enam lbih. taht bus slow mcm ape je. pehh. bosan. :(. but hey, bus tuh cantik and comfy gile. haha. ;p. ok, so we arrived dkt putra, then, driver dh tggu, so, off we go to kampung baru. cik ngoh n fmly still in trggnu, but cik ngoh ask us to stay there, so, kitorg pun tggl dkt rmh cngoh for a few days. :). abg sharir je yg ada bcs die kerja kan, so xdpt balik kampung. woot woot. mma busy dgn acara mnembak die mlm uh. so, pity her lah kan. smp smp je, rushing nk pg pulapol utk training. huhu. so, mlm uh, i msg la labu kan. i ckp la yg i dh smp kl. mlm uh die bgtahu yg die tngah skt leher. kesian dia. sigh. the next morning, mma ksi kitorg kluar. so, pg uh, aftr mma dh pegi, i call nik, i ckp nk jmpe die. i msg labu, i ckp nk jmpe die. labu was like 'pukul brpa?', and i ckp la dlm tngah hr nnt ke. nik pegi dgn labu. so, kitorg dkt klcc la. mna lagi kan. hehe. diorg arrived dlm pkul dua cmtuh. i was eating dkt dunkin donuts dgn my lil sis. then, my sis was like 'kakak, diorg ade kt luar', i ddnt blive her and keep on eating, sbb dh bnyk kali she punk'd me. so, i am nt wasting my time. haha. at lst, i saw three pple msuk dlm dnkin donuts uh, tgk tgk diorg. and tehy were acting like tehy dont know me. haha. i malu gilee. sbb dh lma xjmpe diorg kan. hehe. nik dtg kt i. we were hugging and blablabla. i saw my labu. hehe. die kacak. TOLD YA! hehe. overall, it was FUN. :). wlpn dpt hngout skejap je. :).

well, school dh nk buka. sigh. esk dh nk skolah. sngt mls la weyh. :(. i am busy balik. ggaaahhh. :(. takpe, this year je. nie pun, mma xde ok. die dgn abh trbg pegi bangkok pg td. sbuh sbuh td. :(. 15th nnt bru balik. OH NO!! :((.

well, till here. skt jari ah. haha. btw, i miss labu. die pegi kem. wheuw. well, die pun xslalu msg i kan. pehh. xpe xpe. i undrstnd. he is so BUSY. :). nvmind. ok la, toodles.

28th May 2007.

2007-05-28T22:06:00.000+08:00

oh ok. today is monday. and i woke up early, i guess. about sven smthng. reply bu pnye msg. ehm. i asked him ok psl semua tuh. it ddnt turned out good anyway. uhmm. idk. die ckp i ragu ragu dgn dia. well yeah, i mmg mcm ragu ragu sket dgn dia. yela, tgk die cm xheppi mna pun. uhmmph. :((. ok, stop kejap psl tuh. abt mum, die dmam pula hr nie. ksian tgk dia. smlm die balik, smp umh dlm pkul stu lebih. i sdr, sbb die msuk my room and kiss ketot and me. abh pun balik sma. wheuw. leeegaaa. but hey, mmg ksian la tgk mma. die dmm, batuk, slsma. wush wush. tp, gatal je nk mkn eskem. mama mama. ehehe. ;p. well, abh tade kt rmh hr nie, tgh hr td die pegi kedah. goshh. ssh gila nk lkt kt rmh taw my dad nieyh. ehm. riiinndduu my family. rndu nk mkn ramai2 mcm dlu. ddk stu meja, ckp ckp, mkn mkn, gurau gurau. gosshyyy.

oh well ok, td i ym jap dgn bu. tp, sddnly die sgnout wtht telling me. seedddihh ok? uhm. pastuh bg msg xdrply plak uh. msscll pun xdbls. ehmm. busy kot. yeah yeah. well, hr nie i just bace sjarah je tdi. gila bosan. pastuh tgk tv je. den, main ketot kentot tu pnye nintendo ds. pehh. dh lma xusik mnde tuh. haha. pening pala pening pala. huhu. well well, td bfore abh pg kdah, die tnye me dgn aqff, nk balik trggnu x. then i ckp ah, i got tutions, mcm mna nk blik an, aqff plak free, so abh ingt nk send aqff dgn qilla ke trggnu naik flght. well yyeaaahh. i xbleh lps ttion sbb, nie chpter trigo ok, susah sngt. cannot go. wheuw. so, abh ckp ah, nnt kyong abh bwk ah pegi kl dgn mama. haha. pdn muka diorg. hehe. tp, pehh, i dnt thnk i dpt pegi, still ada ttion hr sbtu nnt. winkies.

oh ye, ptg td, i chat dgn ain. ngaha. dat woman of mine, suka buat i ceria balik. although kitorg knal through myspce je. ngee. she is so friggin sweet la. and juge very undrstnding. wwhheeeuuww. ;). she is in pnang rght now, dkt glngls, ayh die msuk icu. pity her. sigh.

well then, till here je la. i jst hve to go. nk out out dr onlining nieyh. byebye.

27th Of May 2007.

2007-05-27T20:23:00.000+08:00

i woke up at six this morning. then i tidur balik. after awhile i woke up again at eight, i look at my phone incase there is any msgs frm faiz, but gss what? no sign of him at all. so, i gave him a goodmorning msg. then, i tidur balik. i woke up back at about nine something. took my bath. do a lil laundry. clean up the house and stuff. the kitchen was left in a mess ok? terkejut gila pagi td. ape la yg abg wan buat smp bsepah2 dapur. grr. ;(. nvmind abt that, i do some revision. skejap je, lazy la wehh. urggh. than i online skejap, pastuh offline balik. main games skjp. pastuh, tgk tv. read storybooks. borrrinngg gila. hmmph.

in teh afternoon, i online balik, play some interactive games online, than, logout. i just mkn roti je hr nie. drank loads of water. perut pun dh bloated. haha. wtv. masuk bilik, than nmpk ada tga msg. one from faiz, one from ain, one from bro ayzel. i replied all three, simpan balik phne, then i ddk dpn tv, watch dvd, crita the devils wears prada forthe third time. haha. best gila. suke tgk anne hathaway. cun. ;). pehh.

evrythng is ok ok je hr nie. mmg mmbosankan ok. siyesly. idk what to do at all. gilaa laaa. urghh. all i do is just sit around and bore myslf. the worse holiday of my entire life!! sheesh. me with this muka pucat and not feeling so well. shit shit shit. hmmphh. badly missing that big guy of mine. he doesnt seem to care much abt me anyway. sighh. i am starting to think that this is all a big mistake. him accepting me in his life and so on. if i tahu die xheppi mcm nie, i wont even tell my feelings and stuff. i had rather shut up. as long as he is happy. tgk la skg nie mcm mna. hmm. still sma, die dgn life die, me dgn my lfe. omg omg omg. what should i do? i loved him. i really do. sighh. die ada org lain ke eh? ehmm. but u trusted him, with all my heart. i hope he doesnt betray my trust. sheesh. hmm.

well, my parents are still not home tday. pishposh. i missed them so much much much. abg niza ckp mma balik mlm nie, but hey, xde pun. :((. i missed her. i am so friggin lonely rght now. goshie goshie. uhmpph. if all my fmly mmbrs are wth me, i wont be feeling this way. i wont be lonely. but rght now, i just hve nobody. nobody to talk to, nobody to share stories with, nobody to hangout wth. as for my sblings, asek bgaduh je. i cannot tahan all this nonsense gaduh thingy. masing2 nk mnang je. xpnh nk mngalah. aqiff tu pun stu. yg chia tuh, mlut mngalahkan org tua. pakai lepas je ckp. xpnh nk fkir. urgh.

TENSION OK??? urghh. nobody seems to understand my situation. hmm.

wtv. byebye.

A Beautiful Movie Indeed! ;).

2007-05-27T20:05:00.000+08:00

a walk to remember

Jamie: I'm sick.

Landon: I'll take you home. You'll be be.

Jamie: No. Landon! I'm sick. I have Leukemia.

Landon: No. You're 18. You - you're perfect.

Jamie: No. I found out two years ago and I've stopped responding to treatments.

Landon: So why didn't you tell me?

Jamie: The doctor said I should go on and live life normally as best I could. I - I didn't want anybody to be weird around me.

Landon: Including me?

Jamie: Especially you! Ya know, I was getting along with everything fine. I accepted it, and then you happened! I do not need a reason to be angry with God

p/s: this is one of the best movie ever. i cn watch it over and over again and cried over and over again. that guy, shane west a.k.a landon's character is so sweet. really. i liikkee.

True Stuff Ogeyh.

2007-05-27T14:12:00.000+08:00

This text punya bahasa is kinda berbunga bunga jugak ah bahasa die. But, if u rlly undrstnd the meaning and try to read btween the lines, this text makes sense. ;). SERIOUSLY. ;).

Jika kamu memancing ikan.
Bila ikan tu dah terlekat kat mata kail, hendaklah kamu mengambil terus ikan itu.
Janganlah sesekali kamu lepaskan ia semula ke dalam air begitu sahaja.
Kerana ia akan sakit oleh kerana bisanya ketajaman mata kailmu dan mungkin ia akan menderita selagi ia masih hidup.

Begitulah juga setelah kamu memberi banyak pengharapan kepada seseorang.
Setelah dia mula menyayangimu hendaklah kamu menjaga hatinya.
Janganlah sesekali kamu terus meninggalkannya begitu sahaja.
Kerana dia akan terluka oleh kenangan bersamamu dan mungkin tidak dapat melupakan segalanya selagi dia mengingatimu.

Jika kamu menadah air biarlah berpada, jangan terlalu mengharap pada takungannya dan janganlah menganggap ia begitu teguh.
Cukuplah sekadar keperluanmu.
Apabila bekas takungan itu retak,tentu sukar untuk kamu menampalnya semula.
Akhirnya ia dibuang.
Sedangkan jika kamu cuba membaikinya mungkin ia masih boleh digunakan lagi.

Begitu juga jika kamu memiliki seseorang terima lah seadanya.
Janganlah kamu terlalu mengaguminya dan janganlah kamu menganggapnya begitu istimewa.
Anggaplah dia manusia biasa.
Apabila sekali dia melakukan kesilapan bukan mudah bagi kamu untuk menerimanya. Akhirnya kamu kecewa meninggalkannya.
Sedangkan jika kamu memaafkannya boleh jadi hubungan kamu akan berterusan hingga ke akhirnya.

Jika kamu telah memiliki sepinggan nasi yang kamu pasti baik untuk dirimu. Mengenyangkan, berkhasiat.
Mengapa kamu berlengah, cuba mencari makanan yang lain.
Terlalu ingin mengejar kelazatan.
Kelak, nasi itu akan basi dan kamu tidak boleh memakannya.
Kamu akan menyesal.

Begitu juga jika kamu telah bertemu dengan seorang insan yang kamu pasti membawa kebaikan kepada dirimu.
Menyayangimu, mengasihimu.
Mengapa kamu berlengah, cuba membandingkannya dengan yang lain.
Terlalu mengejar kesempurnaan.
Kelak, kamu akan kehilangannya apabila dia menjadi milik orang lain.
Kamu juga yang akan menyesal.

26th Of May 2007.

2007-05-26T23:52:00.000+08:00

today is saturday! :). well, it has been a long time eversince i last post my blog dkt bloggie nie. well, as i say, been a bit busy lately. no time for bloggie woggie. hehe. ;p. i hve got loads of stuff to share with. winkwink. lets talk abt the past few days.

24nd may.
u knw what? on this date, at abt eleven smthng, i am his girl again. i am so friggin happy. hehe. well, dua tga hr sblm tuh, i often msg him. than one day bfore this date, i told him evrythng. terus terang la lebih kurang. about every sngle thing. and i told him that i want him back. die suruh i ngorat die balik. so yeah, on this date, i ngorat la die balik. i called him, we talked, dia ttp dgn die punye jokes. hehe. xde pun nk serious taw. lol. he asked me to sing if i xnk ngorat die. baru die trime me. hehe. so, aftr a few while, i did sang a song. nk tahu lagu apa? lagu skolah. miahahhaa. ;p. tehn phne trputus sbb die pnye bttry phne low. so, yeah, i ingt it wont happen that night. but sddnly, he sent me a msg using payit pnye phne, saying that die dh lma trime me, tp sje nk dgr me nyanyi. hehe. mamat tuh. mmg nk kna cubit bnyk bnyk nnt. ngahaha. ;p. its a great day lah juge. :). i am so friggin happy. as for him, i xthu la. ehmm. :(.

25th May.
on this date pula, i fnished my mdyr exm pper. yay! est, boleh tahan la soalan die. hehe. kewlness. i lliikkee. miahaha. ;p. well, abt him, he told me earlier yg die nk pg cmp on this date aftr frday pryer. so, i mati mati la pcye kan. but u knw what? at last, mlm tuh, i sje je on ym, nk apprve syafira pnye rquest as my frnd, tibetibe nmpk die tngah online. i was like so broken hearted time uh. i asked him, 'ckp pg kem ptg td, nie boleh je online', u knw what he replied? 'xjd lor, pegi esk, pkul 6'. than i ws like, 'ok', die just reply 'huhu' je. ehmm. die mcm xheppi je dgn me ok. and die buat i rse mcm i yg pkse die accpt me balik. idk. if i knew yg dia xkn hppy, i wont asked him to accpt me back in his life. siyes, die mmg nmpk cm xheppi je. pura pura heppi. i asked him, die trme me sbb smpati ke, die ckp x, die trme sbb die luv me. ok ok, i trust him. ehm. i asked him, boleh x i cll him bubu, and he was like, ok je. i am a lil bit frustrated rght now. i wnt to knw his real flngs. me tkt, tkt die pula yg tggl me nnt. hmm. what to do nieh. aduhai. he ddnt even call me b ok? he just called me nisa. it seems like, he prefers it that way. i just accpt it wtht saying anythng. yela kan, mst ht die mcm dh twr je. but i am trying hard to mke him cmfrtble again with me. bile dlm phne, die ok taw. tp, kalau ym and msg, die cm lain sikit. i dnt knw why why why why why. runsing la. ehmm. die buat me rse yg die buat ni sume sbb me yg nk, bkn die yg nk. me xnk la mcm tuh. me nk die trme me sbb he loves me and need me. sigh. i am pretty sad. even when i do hve him, i still drop my tears for him evry sngle tme i think abt him. sighh. he means a lot to me. i wnt to mke him happy. i nk jmpe die, so that i cn sit infrnt of him, and stare at his eyes, to know smada die love me or tdk. ehmm. i wnt him to trust me that i wont break his heart agan for the 4th time, i dh hlg die tga kali ok. i dnt wnt to loose him again. he is my everything. i xnk org lain. siyesly i xnk. ehm. within this few months of breakup thingy, it ddnt turned up well. i do miss him. i do love him, infact, makin bnyk. mkn btmbh2. ehm ehm ehm. i wonder what he feels for me. i takut hilang die. die rmai pminat. :((.

as for tday kan, i woke up early, at abt six smthng, msg him gdmrning. then tdo balik. hr nie sngt bosan. xthu la knpe. ehm. pegi tusen je td. dkt rmh td pun, stdy bio je sket. tgk tv. dgr music. main psp. tu je ah. hhaihh. bosan. wondering ape la yg bu buat skrg nie. mst sdg bgmbira. bestnyee. oh lupe pula, smlm bro ayzel msg me, he asked me knpe dlte myspce. and then die tny, mcm mna me dgn ace, or dh dpt ank mami baru. pehh. ade ke ptt. lol. i told him yg we are ok, we got back tgthr agn. he was like, bagusla kalau mcm tuh and stuff. die psn, if ade mslh, jgn fkirkan sngt sbb me nk spm thun nie. wah, so nice of him. lol. and then, i ckp la yg i am thinking abt ace, bcause ace act dffrnt skrg. xmcm dlu. pastuh bro ckp ah 'mstila, msg2 mst dh brubah skrg, lma bln korg bpsh'. yeah, true true. then die pun ada psn juge, 'when u love sm1, jgn syg smp mrana, cz we dnt knw how it will end up'. true juga. hhaihh. plus ade stu poem ke apa psl cinta yg die ksi. pehh. i bce uh, trasa ah juge. this is the poem :

cinta amat mahal takrifnya, itulah yg difitrah oleh Allah s.w.t kpd hmbanya. cinta hny tertulis pd prktaan, tp gagal dilihat pda zahirnye. krn cinta itu tggjwb dmna wjudnye ksetiaan dan kjujuran didlmnye. ingt pda yg stu, jjur pda yg stia, stia pda yg kasih, ksih pada yg rndu, rndu pda yg mnyayangimu. cnta x akn dtg klo xdcari. cnta juge xkn dpt klo xde sape nk bagi. tp, mncari biarlah pada yg sudi. bukan meraih pda yg simpati.

those words in bold, buat i mcm trase tibetibe. mcm me yg mraih uh dr ace. kan kan? ehmm. i dnt knw. i jst love him so much. ahhh. tension! :((. knp la my life jd mcm nie. kalau la dlu i xmntk break dgn die, mst xjd mcm nie. mst kmi heppi. mnanti detik 17.7 for our 2nd yr annvsry. gosh gosh. wtv pun, i ttp akn lyn bu dgn elok wlpn die lyn me ala kdr or wtsoeva. i nk jge die. i nk syg die. evrythng dia. if die nk mntk break dgn me, me xksh, i akn trma dgn redha. mngkin bkn jdoh kami kan. tp, skrg, me msh ada bubu, me nk buat yg trbaik utk dia. btw bu, i miss you, ilysm.

p/s: mama and abah, i really miss u two. pls come home soon. i dont feel well rght now. my fce jd pct, dh dua hr. my lips mrekah and bdarah. skt. i need both of u by my side. i missed you guys. ehmm. i dnt knw whats wrong wth me. i felt so lemah. i ddnt eat the whole day hr nie, except for a lil bit of bread. then, i dh xmkn lgsg. why eh? ehmm. come back home mama, lets go and see the dctor. i am scared. i rlly am.

10th May 2007.

2007-05-26T23:36:00.000+08:00

well, dh lma i xtype in this bloggie. sheesh. been busy wth stuff lately smpi lupe nk blogging. miahaha. ;p. well u knw what, hari tue, ace, he gave me this cmmnt at page dealova. ;). on the 5th of may!!

me bru je lps bce msg2 lme kte.. trse rndu plak kt tme dlu.. ale.. tme mde2 dlu.. huhu... funny ade sdh ade grm ade n smue pun ade.. mcm2 ada.. ble trigt ksh lme trse cm nk blk je tme tu.. ble me wit u me rse hppy sgt.. xpnh me rse cmtu.. n me trllu syg sgt kt u.. i rlly2 do.. klo me xsyg kt u me xkn ssh pyh dtg kt kmpg bru dlu yg tme u dtg kl tu smte2 nk jmpe ngn u.. me rindu sgt2 kt u.. n i luv u so mch.. dats y me sggp dtg kt kmpg bru tu.. klo la me xsyg u me xkn dtg pnye aritu.. sbb da tlmpau syg la me dtg tau x.. tp skng kte da jd cmni.. u ngn hdp u me ngn hdp me.. ssh nk jd cm dlu lg.. ht me da twr da.. gne la prnch pape pun die ttp rse twr gak.. umph.. i rlly2 luv u raja ezzatul nisa.. i rlly2 do.. tq so mch fo ur crng n ape2 jela.. me apprcte sgt2.. tq once agn.. tkecre k.. bye

ace, i do love you too. only u je yg xthu. if i ddnt love u, i wont waste my time msging u, clling u, yming u, cmmnting u. my life seems to be so useless wtht u. well yeah, mula mula i think yg i cn live la kan wtht u. tp, frm time to time, it seems to be so hard living wtht u. so so so HARD. i missed u all the time. do u miss me like i missed u? wuallahualam. that cmmnt u gave me, mcm gve me some kind of light and hope. and strting frm that day, i nk u balik. no matter what. even if i get humiliated. :). ily sngt. u je yg xthu.

puisi. ;p

2007-02-25T20:41:00.000+08:00

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Aih
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Kenapa tak goyangkan saja…
Loncengnya…
Biar terdera
Atau aku harus lari ke pantai
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heart heart. :)

2007-02-25T20:37:00.000+08:00

pieces of junk.

2007-02-14T20:00:00.000+08:00

well. yeahh. tday is vlentine. haha. no use lahh wehh. its not prper for us muslims to be clbrting this "valentines" day nway. hhaihh. ohh yes. today is such an exhausting day. not feeling well weyh. nway, at skuld dist mrning, i ws chosen as one of the 'guards of honor' ystrdy. utk smbut pgwai2 dr kmntrian pljrn thailand. well yeahh. it did happen pg td. haha. gile pnt ohh. sixty thailand pple came n vsit cgl. they keep popping into our classes to see our study method or wtv. wheuw. amt pns ohh. bbaris spnjg jln. well, it went on pretty smoothly. its PERFECT! a big clap to the police cadets. their march was superb. all in one day. wow. :). totally amazing. ohh ya, the thai pple walk into the chmstry lab during my class's chmstry priod. cehh. kbtulan plak i sat infront kosh i was so damn hot n cnt see the teacher's hndwrtng on the board. addoii. they went into the lab. n mrs lim [the principle] was like 'this is our chmstry lab'. haha. she was suppose to say our ancient chmstry lab. ;p. jowkin. ohh ya, back to the main point. we greet them 'good morning sir's and madam's'. n there was one of this pgawai, walk infront of me, rzaina's n syafira's tble n was like, hw are u. haha. we was like blinking n a lil while ltr syafira said 'fine thank you'. haha. ohh. ape me merepek nie. enuff abt them. :)). well. went back home at about 1.50. gile pnt ohh hr nie. blik2 je mkn. then online. hmwrk xbuwat pn lg. ahh. otak srabot dowh. wheuw. mirul keep on sending msgs saying that he is sorry n blablabla. well, i dnt blame he. bt yeahh, he shuld watch his words. if pple were nice to me i will be ten thousand much nicer to them. but when they are rude to me, i will be rude to them too. duhh. for now, i just wnna be alone. alone alone alone. my mind is all messed up n gss what? xam is cming soon! shit!!!! i got tons of other things to do. i need to prepare for my frst test nxt mnth. the frst week of march! gile ke ape. adehh. dh la lgsg xbsdia. hmm. dh dh dh. i need to prepare myslf wth the cming xams. loads of stuff to do other than sit around thnking abt useless pple. who cn help me free up my mind other than myself. kan? wth the help of Allah too. :). after reciting the alquran, things are much more clearer. alhamdulillah. ok lahh. till here. got loads of junks to do. toodles. xoxo.

confessions. espclly to ace. [although i knw u are not gonna be reading it]. who cares.

2007-02-12T16:06:00.000+08:00

love is everything its cracked up to be. thats why people are so suspicious about it. it really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for. and the trouble is, if u dont risk anything, u risk even more. meeting you was a chance, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with u?? i just had no control over it.

i miss you when something really good happens, because you are the one i want to share it with. i miss you when something is troubling me, because you are the one who understands me so well sometimes. i miss you when i laugh and cry because i know that you are the one that makes my laughter grow and my tears disappear. i miss you all the time, but i miss you most when i lay awake at night and think of all the wonderful times we spent with each other, for those were some of the best times of my life.

when i look annoyed. its when i want us to be together despite it all. when you are with someone it isnt always going to be easy for me. sigh.

when i am silent and speechless. i try to talk to you, but i don’t know what to say. i am afraid you don’t want me to say anything. so i don’t. but inside of me there are words waiting to come out. and tell you how i feel like and how i need you in my life. especially how much i want you. but those words may forever stay in my heart locked inside. sometimes i wonder if there are words locked inside you too. cause sometimes u are always speechless too. but now i’ll never know.

when i ignore you. it doesnt mean that i dont love you. it doesnt mean that i dont care for you. it doesnt mean that i dont wnt to live my life wishing for you to be there with me. when i run away from you. care for me and search for me when i least deserve it, because that’s when i really need it.

hmm. i want to be remembered as the girl who always smiles even when my heart is broken, and the one that could always brighten up your day even if i couldn’t brighten my own.

WHEN I PULL AWAY. maybe i could have loved you in different way. maybe you should have loved me too. maybe our hearts were just next in line. maybe everything breaks sometime. MAYBE.

if i dont call you. in case you failed to notice, in case you failed to see, this is my heart, bleeding before you, this is me down on my knees. YES, I LOVE YOU and there is nothing that i would like better than to hold on to you forever. BUT i know it’s not for the best. so no matter how much my heart is going to break, i’ve got to let you go.

people are brought together for a reason, everything happens for a reason. i believe the reason that you and me were brought together was because we attribute with one another. we fill in each other’s missing spots with consideration. and now, God decides to detach us apart, i trust that there is a reason. cause if there is a reason for love, there is a reason for life beyond it.

WHEN I GIVE UP. it is impossible to fall out of love. love is such a powerful emotion, that once it envelops you it does not depart. TRUE LOVE is timeless. if you think that you were once in love, but fell out of it, then it wasn’t love you were in. There are no ‘way out’ signs in love.

P/S:-

faiz, falling in love is not as easy as it seems like. being loved by someone deeply is also not easy. forgetting someone whom you have loved throughly is also not as easy as ABC. i know, this is not the time to filled up my head and heart with regrets. it totally seems like our rltnshp is over. but deep down inside my heart, i kinda know that one day, we will be back together again. i know u still loves me. i know. and, if wtv i am saying right now is wrong and didnt turn up to be like the way it should be, i will just have to forget u. life must go on! :). i still love you. i miss you. so bad. but do u know? wuallahualam. i hope u know. makin kite nk lupe org itu, mkin kuwat prasaan tu dtg. knape? hhaihh. the power of love! :)). our memories are treasured deep down inside my heart and right now, for the time being, there is absolutely NOTHING that can stop me from remembering every second of our past time. from the first day we met. till the last day we met. we frst met in the school canteen. n we end up meeting in kmpung baru earlier this year. MEMORIES. sngt ssh utk ht nie nk trime org lain. sngt ssh. i am still waiting for him. dont care. go to hell with what other people say. ok? and if betol lahh ace is going to break my fawkin heart, its gonna be so so so bad. badly torn. but nvmind. i dont mind. as long as i love him. i do rlly love him.

05/02/2007. Monday. [all about guys].

2007-02-05T20:55:00.000+08:00

frst of all. hppy brthday to zulfize bin razali. :). he is nineteen. dh tua. lol. try to msg him tp xdpt ahh wehh. lol. dh tkr nmber kowt. nvm. ;). ohh ya. hr nie hr yg pling ntah pape skali. i felt like someone stupid. plus, RUNSING sngt! ok, lets talk abt ten minutes ago. at abt 8.40, bru lps hbs ckp dgn nik. n die ade stowie psl faiz. ntah ahh. bile dgr nma faiz, i felt like, ouch! sebak. mcm rndu. tp, ntah. at the same time, tfkir yg die xcare psl kite. i dnt knw. dkt skolah td pn, tga org kaitkan nma me dgn faiz. duhh. why? i broke up wth him olredi. dnt they undstnd? they are making life hard for me. ntahla. for this past few days, sering tringat dkt faiz. nie bkn main2. this is serious stuff. what should i do? faiz here faiz there faiz everywhere. ohh no. i still have feelings for faiz and at the same time, i hve given a lil hope to mirul. ohmigosh. why do i have to face all this stuff. xde sape tau ape yg me rase rite at this mment. where are friends when we need them??? huhh? first, lets talk abt mirul. kdg2, me rse mcm me fhm sngt dri diyer. but at other times, diyer bwat me rse cm, ntah ahh. UNDESCRIBEABLE. klo ckp psl mirul or faiz, mst mcm nk compare mreka bdua. its like, evrythng is faiz faiz faiz. why ehh? ahh. ntahla. it has been a month n ten days eversince i broke up wth faiz. tp, i miss him. smenjak dua mnjak nieyh. td, msa nik cwite psl faiz scra tibe2, ht me rse cm brubah sket. I DONT KNOW WHAT THE FAWKIN HELL IS WRONG WITH ME!!! nobody seems to undrstnd. ahhh!! i dnt wnt to be in any rshp for now. i wnna wait for faiz. i knw it sound stupid. but, ntah. smlm n smlm smlm i mmpi psl faiz. ohh. klo cwite kt org, mst org xpcye kan? but. thats the truth. tp, da prblm is, i alrdy broke up wth faiz. da scnd prblm is, i got mirul! waiting for me rite nw. ohh no. COMPLICATED! i dnt wnna break his heart. he is kinda nice. but, faiz is nicer. ehmm, but, why do i wnna stick wth dat faiz? why does my heart felt weird whenever i heard his nme or whenever i msg wth him or y.m wth him. why?? thats the sign of love rite? ohh shit. mirul? faiz? mirul? faiz? NEITHER. ddk diam2 sorg2 jelahh. xpyh nk nyusahkan jiwa n pmikiran org lain. hdp me nieyh, xhbs2 nyusahkan org. ;(. tensen lahh wehh. pnt fkir. skt kpala. ohh god. i am such a big LOSER!. i wnna be like this. smpi ht me btl2 dbuka olh org yg tchenta. xkire lahh sape pn. i dnt care what other pple think abt me. go to hell if u hate me. sy xpnh gnggu hdp korg yg mmbnci sy. jd get lost. jgn cmpur dlm ursn hdp sy. friends are forever. rshp? they dont last long. that is what i get from what i hve been observing. shoot me. i am a loser. a pathetic loser. kdg2, bile kite rse mcm kite dh chentakan seseorg tue, kite dh boleh trime diyer, nnt psti akn ade bnda yg jd or akn mngubah prasaan kt ht kite jd lain. me nie mnusia biase je. ade ht, ade prasaan. i knw, klo me cple dgn mirul skalipn, mngkin me akn bhgia. tp, i am not raedy for love. bnda yg lalu msh ade dlm ingatan. n prasaan me kuwat. my feelings told me that one day, a guy who has been wth me for quite some time, would change n would strt to accpt me back in his life. and i hope that guy is faiz. but. ohh shit. it sounds totalli immpossible. rite? but. thats wht my instinct told me. sape lg yg me nk pcye? klo bkn dri sndri n prasaan sndri. ikt kta ht. ht xpnh mnipu. kn? i relli need someone to hug rite now. i hate myslf for hurting pple's flngs. i am sorry. espclly to faiz. i relli am. u guys can hate me if u wnt to. i dnt mind. mmg ptt pn. :). only god knows hw i felt rite now. tkak kering. mta bngkak. hdung merah. mcm org hlg ank. dobo pnye nisa. slmt mlm.

4/02/2007. Sunday.

2007-02-04T21:56:00.000+08:00

:). uhh. its sunday. pejam celik pejam celik. dh sunday. awhh man. dat means, tmrw is a skuld day. how EXCITING! haha. sngt lahh exciting. stu msa for assmbly [boring]. dua msa kmia [fun fun]. dua msa englsh [yadda yadda]. dua msa sjarah [shoot me]. stu msa addmth [benci]. stu msa est [bntang abt bird flu]. n n. klas amali agma. ohh man. stay back until 2. doinksh. :(. uhh. lets talk abt tday. well. mangun pagi2. bsuh mka, off aircnd. bring blik ats ktil. weply meses miwul. blablabla. tuwon bwh, kms dpur, wt brkfst for fmly. dh settle. pg mdi, siap2, bwk tuwon kain, mesen kain. nden, kluar pg qbay n giant dr pkul sbelas lbh smp pkul lma lbh td. penat wehh. skt kki. haha. bnyk sngt bnda lwa2 kt sna. kt butik diva, ohmagosh. tau2 je sy addicted sma bangles, bead necklaces, kdi tue ade sume itu. ohh. rambang mta wehh. tp, xli pape pn. haha. wlpn mreka ngah sale. sy ttarik pda stu rntai nieyh. rntai silver. labuh lahh. ade stu pendant. pndant diyer cm, bntuk oval. its like a small frame lahh. bile bkak bnda tue, dlm diyer lehh tawuk gmbr. ohh. amt lawa. smilan hengget je. tp, xbli. nyesal2. uhuwks. :(. kaming soon ahh bli. hehe. xp. ohh ohh. lg stu, kt ryal sprtng hse td. suwar pendek speedo. outwear for swmmg lahh kan. tp, xkire. lawaa wehh. mao mao. kaler pink. uhh. kaler blue pn ade. uhuwks. mao mao. :(. gile rmbang mta td. haha. dh ahh mkn bnyk. ntah pape je. nisa nisa. haha. bdn dh gemowk cm badak sumbu. lol. wheuw. nways, blik td, dh sttle sume. tetibe plak kna mawah ngan abh. bkn mawah lahh. more tue stu WARNING. bil mlambung wo. mcm mna bleh mlambung eh? i tade ah gune bnyk mna pun. stkt kdg kdg sms uh ade la. ehmm. pelik. nie ah die, gune lagi fmly plan blablabla uh. uhh. nk cncntrte stdy. ahah. xp. lucu kn dgr. tp btl ahh. nk cncntrte stdy nieyh. nxt mnth xam. :(. boo hoo. well. as for my personal yet not so personal life tday, sume ok. kwn2 pn ok. well. td, ym ngan faiz. ahah. emm. kdg2. rs cm, die mmg lgsg xksh pun psl me. in other words, HE DOESNT SEEMS TO CARE. mcm sedih ah juge. tp, my fault juge, i yg mntk break dgn dia for the thrd time. die xbrslh. well, past is past nway. uhh. mirul plak, well. msg skjp je ngan diyer hr nieyh. wheuw. i thot of gving my phne to mma a week bfore xam ptnghn tahun. SERIOUS. hny akn pgg phne klo tusen ato kluar pg mna2. btl nie wehh. ehee. insyallah. mmg akn ksi nnt. itu je jln utk krgkn bil. :). umm. exhausted lahh hr nieyh. not mch to say. well. yeahh. till here jelahh. tade mood nk tls pnjg2 n bebunge2. ht sy xde spe yg tahu. ahah. :).

'in my head theres only u nw, this world falls on me, in this world theres real n make blive, this seems real to me, u love me but u dnt knw who i am, i am torn btween this life i lead n where i stand, u love me but u dnt knw who i am, so let me go, just let me go, let me go'
[3 DOORS DOWN]

'take my phto off the wall if it jst wont sing for u, coz all thats left hs gone away n theres nthng there for u to prove, ohh, look what u hv dne, u hv mde a fool of evry1, ohh well, its seems like such fun until u loose what u had won, gve me back my point if view coz i just cnt think for u, i cant hrdly hear u say, wht should i do will u choose, ohh look what u hv dne, u hv made a fool of every1, ohh well, it seems like such fun until u loose what u hd won, ohh look what u hve dne u hve made a fool of everyone!!'
[JET]

'i am moody messy, i get restless n i am senseless hw u nver seems to care, when i am angry u lsten, mke me happy thats ur mission n u wont stop till i am there, fall wth u i fall so fast, i cnt hardly ctch my breath i hope it last, ohh, it seems like i cn finally rest my head on smthng real, i like the way that feels, ohh, its as if u knw me btter than i knew myslf, i love hw u cn tell, all the pieces, pieces of me'
[ASHLEE SIMPSON]

XOXO.

2/2/2007. Friday. [at last]. ;)

2007-02-02T20:13:00.000+08:00

ding dong. ahah. smlm xmnaip pn di bloggie ini. maaf ahh. tlampau capek. haha. uhh. well. smlm ok je. hr nie pn sma. blehh la than. :). ibubpa pn blm pulang lg. mngikut chia, mreka dlm pjlnan. lg tga jam, insyallah smpi. uhh. xsbr nye. rndu sngt dgn khadiran mreka. :). well. at school. sume ok. td amik pict for stdnt i.d card. well. yeahh. hehe. with stdnt i.d card, tgk wyg pn murah wehh. haha. uhh. hr nie, amat konsentrasi dlm klas. lg2 time biology. amat best wt keje yg ckgu ksi. xtau knpe. rse teruja bila dpt siapkannye. hehe. uhh. n td. bwat graph. encek borhan pnye ahh. kna lukis 39 graph. n calculate intrsection mreka. adehh. tp, its fun lahh. btl ahh ckp org, klo tnam mnt sket, cnfr kite lehh wat. adehh. :). uhh. as for encek mirul itu. we are ok. cme ptg td je, diyer tetibe cm moody. pastue pkir bkn2. xshukew2. mcm xpcye dkt me je. uhh. actlly, it all started out when he said 'dh pnt2 syg n blablabla'. dh pnt? as if mcm xikhls je. trsentuh ahh jgk kjp kan. sy nie nmpk je mcm nie. tp, jiwa amt snstf. even pkataan yg org anggap tade pape pn, sy lehh trase tp ska mmendam. uhh. xde sape yg btl2 phm dri me mcm mna. sedeh2. hmm. mirul ckp, me nie xpnh bgtau kt diyer ape yg ade dlm ht me? btl ke? i dont think so. mngkin x bnyk, tp, ade lahh. xbpe mnyerlah sbb kmi blm bsma lg. klo dh bsma snang. me blehh luah je smua. me nie jns xreti nk membunge2 kan kata2. haha. ayt ape tue? who cares. haha. well, hrp sngt diyer fhm. its still a shock though. bygkan lahh. org yg kite xpnh jmpe. n just jmpe pn thru intrnet je, falls for us. dlm msa yg sngkt plak tue. adehh. i cannot accpt him, i still have muhd faiz bin mohd in my heart. uhm. i missed him. i love him. only him. ehm. hatiku mudah tersentuh. mudah memaafkan, tp sukar melupakan. itu SAYA!!. klo org xnk fhm dri sy, get lost lahh. n klo org benci sy mcm nie, get the hell outta here. sy xprlukan anda smua yg mmentingkan dri sndri. pg kluar dr hdup sy. wheuw. well. td, bro bg testi kt frndstr. hehe. diyer ksi msc vdeo. lgu ape tahh. tp amt best. with the msg 'lagu yg ssuai utk org wth lng dstnce rshp'. hee. well, diyer xtau lg yg me dh break dgn faiz. em. uhh. tue ahh, bro tue bz sngt. mklm ahh. genius. hehe. sebok je kat uia tue. adehh. kdg2 rndu gak ahh nk msg2 ngan diyer cm dulu. haha. uhh. ingt lg, msa f3. hehe. diyer f5. kt canteen smkpu. me stdy dgn kwn kt meja lain. diyer dkt mja blakang. haha. kmi xbckp. sms wo. wlpn dkt. haha. lawak gile. xp. me kn pmalu. hehe. n n, on 17/07/2005, my 15th bday, bro ahh org ptma yg ksi me pwezen. compilation cd diyer. amat suke. hehe. mcm2 lgu febret me diyer tawuk. he was so damn sweet. wlpn time tue ktorg bru knl bbrpe mnggu. hehe. well. he is da nicest most understanding tp kdg2 sngt ego pnye bro. hehe. ;). all the best to him. sigh. well. skang tringat dkt keira ngan lynn ahh wehh. windu sngt kt mreka. hehe. keira di jhor. lynn kt teknik mlaka. aww. rindu. keira pn dh mkin jrg kold or msg skang. bz dgn rkn2 diyer kowt. hhaihh. lynn plak, slalu gak mesej if diyer blik dr hostel. hbs spm, kmi nk jmpe. xsbr2. hehe. :)). dh lma xdgr cwite psl amir. ntah chemana ahh diyer skang kan. kt matrix kulim kdah. adehh. org yg wt sy kcewa amat sngt. haha. tp still kwn. pelik kan? tp bnar. hehe. wheuw. bila la nk hbs spm. got tired of stdying already. adehh. lehh botak kpla wehh. hahahaha. xp. ohh. sudahla bwat msa skrg. pnt ahh plak type. haha. astalavista bebeh. ciao. :).

lelaki. lol. boleh prcye ke? haha.

2007-02-02T20:06:00.000+08:00

Apabila cowok yang benar2 jatuh cinta dan setia pada kekasihnya degan ikhlas,perubahan sikapnya amat mengejutkan. Hati lelaki yang dianggap keras selama ini, tiba2 secara semulajadi menjadi selembut kapas apabila sudah jatuh cinta dengan
relanya. Bahkan lelaki yang mabuk cinta sanggup berkorban dan buat apa sahaja untuk kekasihnya.Sekeras manapun hati lelaki ia akan mengalirkan air mata apabila hatinya dilukai. Untuk melihat lelaki menangis amatlah payah.

Diantara tanda2 lelaki yg jatuh cinta
dgn hebat
ialah:

1. Dia bersungguh2 melakukan sesuatu untuk kekasihnya dgn rela bukan krna terpaksa.
2. Dia sentiasa ingin menghiburkan kekasihnya dan berubah menjadi orang yang kuat bercakap.
3. Dia banyak menasihati kekasihnya kerana dia amat menyayangi kekasihnya.
4. Dia berusaha mengongkong kebebasan kekasihnya kerana perasaan cemburunya yang meluap2.
5. Dia sentiasa takut kehilangan kekasihnya.
6. Dia sentiasa mengawasi pergerakan kekasihnya krn dia sentiasa berasa curiga.
7. Dia tidak suka ada lelaki lain rapat dgn kekasihnya.
8. Dia mudah merasa cemburu dan sensitif apabila kekasihnya tidak menumpukan sepenuh perhatian kepadanya.
9. Adakalanya dia seperti seorang anak kecil yang meminta perhatian krn dia mahu kekasihnya melayannya lebih dari org lain.
10. Dia menjadi org yg paling rajin dan sanggup membantu kekasihnya melakukan apa saja.
11. Dia pandai merajuk hati krn ingin dipujuk oleh kekasihnya.
12. Dia akan menggelabah apabila kekasihnya berjauhan daripanya terlalu lama.
13. Dia sentiasa mempastikan keselamatan kekasihnya.
14. Dia mementingkan kekasihnya daripada dirinya sendiri.
15. Dia kerap bertanya adakah kekasihnya mencintainya krn dia merasa kasihnya lebih kuat daripada kekasihnya.
16. Dia tidak akan melayan perempuan lain yg tidak ada urusan penting dengannya.
17. Dia cuba meluangkan lebih byk masa dgn kekasihnya walaupun terpaksa menunggu kekasihnya dgn sabar.
18. Dia membanggakan kekasihnya di depan org lain.
19. Kalau ditinggalkan oleh kekasihnya, ia akan berasa serik dan tidak percaya dgn cinta perempuan lain namun dia sentiasa mengharap kekasihnya kembali kepadanya.
20. Apabila timbul org ketiga, dia akan hilang akal dan sanggup berbuat apa saja untuk merebut kembali kekasihnya.
21. Dia menganggap kekasihnya sebagai orang yang paling dipercayainya dan sanggup menyerahkan harta walaupun nyawanya sendiri.
22. Dia tidak akan berlaku curang kepada kekasihnya namun jikalau dia berbuat demikian itu bererti hatinya belum 100 persen mencintai kekasihnya.
23. Bukan semua lelaki sanggup menitiskan airmata hanya untuk seorang perempuan.

ahahaha. ;p.

twelve signs of falling in love.

2007-01-31T23:14:00.000+08:00

These are the 12 signs of falling in love:

12. You'll read his/her IMS over and over again...

11. You'll walk really really slow while you're with him/her...1

0. You'll feel shy whenever you're withhim/her...

9. While thinking bout him/her, your heart will beat faster and faster...

8. By listening to his/her voice, you'll smile for no reason...

7. While looking at him/her, you cant see the other people around you,you can only see that person...

6. You'll start listening to SLOW songs...

5. He/She becomes all you think about...

4. You'll get high just by their smell...

3. You'll realize that you're always smiling to yourself when you think about them..

2. You'll do anything for him/her...

1. While reading this, there was one person on your mind the whole time...

i heart this song since 2004.

2007-01-31T22:54:00.000+08:00

this song means a lot to me.

music lah.

2007-01-31T22:45:00.000+08:00

girls confession. :)

2007-01-30T20:21:00.000+08:00

Girl's Confessions
[/] I'm not easy.
[/] I do wear make up
[/] When I walk by mirrors, I can't help but look.
[/] I wear toe nail polish.
[/] I have cried at a movie theater
[/] I've purposely talked to a guy myboyfriend didn't like.
[ ] I love chocolate covered pretzels
[/] Getting a flower makes me smile,especially for no reason.
[ ] I've wrecked a car.
[/] I can't put mascara on withoutopening my mouth.
[/] I'd do (almost) anything for a special guy.
[/] I love cuddling.
[/] I think Johnny Depp is hot inPirates.
[ ] I've gotten a detention.
[ ] I've gotten suspended
[/] I love to laugh.
[/] I like rock.
[ ] I like rap.
[ ] I like techno
[/] I carry a purse.
[ ] I've been called a party girl.
[ ] I did own a Spice Girls CD.
[/] I did own a Britney Spears CD.
[ ] Football isn't boring.
[/] I love athletic boys
[/] I love skater boys.
[ ] I love ghetto boys.
[ ] I love emo boys.
[/] Sweet guys are better than hotguys.
[/] I've been called a tease.
[/] Lip gloss is better than lipstick.
[ ] I can't leave the house without makeup.
[ ] I'm a bitch. Deal withit.
[/] I play video games, even when there are other people around.
[/]My friends are the best, and they're VERY important to me.
[/] I am crazy....
[/] I really want to be with a certain someone right now.
[ ] I smoke way too much
[ ] I have a tattoo or Iwant one
[ ] I have been to more than 5 concerts

30/01/2007. Tuesday.

2007-01-30T19:45:00.000+08:00

well well well. its da last day in the month of january. :). sigh. time passed by quickly when u are having fun. haha. urggh. bru je blik dr tusen. haha. pnt wohh. bengkok tgn lukis graph. haha. tgn flexible. xpyh ahh gne flxble curve lg. ato bak kta miss ho, sexy curve people! haha. dat teacher. lol. hmm. well, td kn, kt tmpt tusen, [tetibe dtg terawal sket plak td], ade ahh sowg mmt nieyh, dlm klass i ade lpn org je. so, ade ahh dist guy. ntah apekebnda nma diyer pn xtau. xpnh nk amik tahu. hehe. dr fst day i tgk diyer, sheesh, mcm poyo jep. bgaya giler nk pg tusen. dgn gaya hiphoppers diyer. kanowt go btl. haha. lucu je. dgn ovrsized tshrt, baggy pants ato shorts, n also pki ksut addas lah, nike lah, tmrlnd lahh. perggh. superb bgaya. haha. cm lucu je tgk. haha. mmt sowg lg yg ade dlm tmpt tusen tue pn xmcm diyer. rileks je pki sliper jpun. hehe. sedeh2. bgya sakan. :). ohho. i bought ayamas td. haha. oripepper set. nyummy. bt nt fr me alne. its for the three of us. nnt nk kna wat nsi aym. adehh. nsi plnta sdh. snang sket. knak2 nieyh bnyk songeh. popok bru tawu. hehe. well, td, msuk otak lah jgk dgn ape yg ckgu ajr. :)). shukew2. lalalala. one more thing, i was feeling so friggin cold tday. shit. dunno why. even when the fan is off, i still felt cold. why ahh? uhh. wondering why. hmm. nden, sume tgur, ckp mka pucat ape sume. knape ehh? uhh. where are my parents when i badly need them. sigh. :(. ogoshh. esk hr koku. pki tshrt ngan sluar track sudah. haha. xpyh gsok bju. ohh bestnye. haha. xp. nisa pemalas sep! lol. uhh. td kt skulah. i tetido okep. fst msa bm. nden, msa bio. dlm lab. dpn mta ckgu. slumber je. haha. ckgu xde plak nk tgur. wheuw. naseb baik. :). dunno lahh. sleepy sngt tday. tired sngt2. mngkin sbb bngun tlebeh awl kowt. jam itu tlah mnipu sy. jaat pnye jam. sebat diyer nnt. urggh. just nw, abh call. shitto. he was like. 'bgtau dkt adk2, jgn bnyk sngt gne tlfon n bla3'. he paid over 4oo++ u knw. lol. suppose byr 250 je monthly. hhaihh. overused. i need to cntrol that bfore he starts taking pur phne back. hhaihh. nk sms pn kna wt jdual skang. haha. dobo je. hmm. rse mcm nk ksi je phne dkt parents nnt. tp, nt nw lahh. later. i will. nk cncntrate lahh. ssh hdp if result trok spm nieyh. tidak2. nver2 gonna disappoint my parents. they are my EVERYTHING . so. yeahh. need to do my best. cnctrtrate. focus. evrythng lahh. :). when spm is over. i am totally outta here. nk blik kmpg. ddk dgn wan&&ki. :). xde nk pkir ape dh. snang sket. hmm. n aftr spm, nk amek klas bhsa jpn! aww. mma ksi. abh pn ksi. hehe. besht besht. well. i gotta go. need to take my bath. pray my prayers. evrythng. n also cook for those hypercative sblings of mine. haha. gotta go. toodle doo bloggie. :). XOXO.

p/s: i miss him. tp, ego nie kuat sngt. urghhh.

28/01/2007. Sunday.

2007-01-28T23:29:00.000+08:00

uhh. my very first thingy to post. lol. uhh. today has been quite a tough day to me. well. not TOO tough. its just that, i am feeling so friggin exhausted. haaihh. not enough time to rest. mesti ade je bnda yg nk kna buwat. shit. pnat lahh. dh la esk skulah. so so so lazy to go to school. espclly the part where i hv to wke up early in the morning. mls mls mls. adehh. well. today, i got a msg from jawe. well. duhh. he is my ex. sho, we sms for awhile. bla here bla there blabla evrywhere. haha. we are still like good fwends. doinks. he kinda blames me for breaking up wth labu. sigh. knpe msti sume org nk slhkn me. rse mcm org dobo je. sume bnda org nk mngata. benci btl. senyap lahh weyh. korg bkn tau pn ape yg me rase. ckp je lebeh. uhh. lemas lemas. back to the story, well, jawe cm xpuwas ht lahh kan biler dpt tau me dh break dgn faiz. dia bleh plak ckp, dlu time dgn die pn me bwat mcm tue jgk. well. hello?? dat was ages ago. i loved faiz ok. not him. xkn la i nk fake my love pula. kan ke bengong nmanye tuh. siyes, i do rlly love faiz with all my heart. pehh. jawe uh, die dh ade gf. senyap n jge gf diyer ckup ahh. cm tsinggung ahh gak td. kesedihan. lol. tp, nvm. :). he gave me a few advice. talks about his new gf. whom he said he was only using her. lol. mcm2 je. n die ade gk tnye smada i still smpn da book a.k.a diary yg sume ttg diyer. hehe. sibuk je. i kept every single diary abt my past okeyh. amir, jawa, faiz. smua ada. winkies. lol. diyer ckp, diyer fhm me jnis yg mcm mna. well. teruja lahh. lol. uhh. doinks. ohh yeah. td pg Qbay dgn fmly. ohh. memenatkan sngt. nk tcabot kki. lg2 pg jln2 tme tngah pokai kan. lg lah bosan. haha. killewr mesken skang. tade duwet. kna ikt perot ahh. save duwet. lol. ibubapa plak, bli hme thtre. utk ape tah. nk wat pwgam ke ape kat umh. haha. blehh bgegar buket nieyh dgn sound system itu. lol. happy biler mreka ade disisi. rse slmt sngt. uhh. chenta ibubpa. :)). well. esk diorg xde. pg kl. AGAIN. srupe xpyh pndh. ddk je kt pchong tue. bkn lkt pn kat pnang. skjp2 pg kl. pstue pg tggnu. pg kdah. pg sni, pg sna. bosan lahh asek kna tggl je. uhh. dh la pg lma plak tue. 2nd of feb bru blik. uhh. lama sngt lahh. xbest nye. :(. akan mrindui mreka. wheuw. nway. esk miss ho sdh kmbali mngeggarkan klass 5 science mahir. gempak btl form tchr kmi. amat cerewet lahh. uhh. lst week, whole week diyer tade. xbljr ahh mth dgn addmth. amat syiok. haha. dh arr tetiap hr ade addmth dgn mth. bleh pcah otak. lol. membosankan lahh. esk kna stay plak tue kt skuld. ade amali. aww. naseb baik ustzh best. hehe. if x, pensan lahh. haha. ohh. sblm trlupa. td dpt brita dr nik. adk dh break dgn dira. kesian je. bee pn dh break dgn abg hfz. ape dh jd. aww. sume dh break3. uhh. where is the love people. aww. ssh sep nk cr org yg btl2 syg kt kite nk pcyekan kite. doinksh. rndu kt skolah lma. pnuh dgn knangan trindah. yaw! xp. siyes lahh weyh. bnyk knangan. still rmmbr evrythng. frm da frst day i msuk skulah tue 3/01/05. frst day knal nik, pkot n wani. nden, knal faiz. ohh shit. em, faiz. ntah chemana ahh diyer skang kan. dh lma xdgr brita psl dia. hmm. i missed him. well, dia bhgia lahh kot. wheuw. skuld tue tggl bnyk sngt knangan me n him. :)). head prefect yg gempak. sporting habis. dating je kt skulah. always tgthr2. hehe. org lain dating mrh. hehe. lucu je. n also. i rmmbr, a week bfore me pndh. dia n ex dia organise a bday party for me. best gile. xsngke sngt. :). that was sweet of him. wlpn we dh broke up, i will alway slove you. really. hahaw. n, bfore i pndh, lgsg xdpt jmpe diyer. die trbg pg beijing. uhh. knangan. ahh. to be treasured. i am going to build a new life. with my friends n family. ohh. best. :). aww. doinksh. xsbr nk tamat spm. bosan lahh. :(. haha. xp. well. enuff for now. XOXO.